Closet queen no more!!

June 1st, 2009

It was funny how a statement turned my day around, I’m quite sure I’m not the right person to answer that question. Well anyway, I want to share a peculiar but very insightful conversation I had with a stranger….

It was late afternoon, while I was waiting for the surgeon to arrive…I was sitting next to a mom and a boy whom I believe to be about 12 or 13 years old. They were laughing while having snacks….. the boy asked permission from his mom to I guess walk around the hospital….

Then the mommy faced me with a smile on her face and asked ” bading kaya ang anak ko na yan” I smiled, for the first time in my life I was speechless….It was so stranged, I mean we’re strangers, i wasn’t even looking at them…o well, knowing me I would always have something to say. I asked her how she came up with that conclusion about her son..so she made kwento, the usual tale about a boy who will probably wear tiara oneday,someday….actually I didn’t do so much talking, I was listening very carefully to the mom. I was intrigued how shes taking everything, she was laughing and I didn’t see any disappointment in her statements…my neck kinda’ ache with too much nodding hehehehe… to sum it up, it wasn’t a complain at all, it was only a storytelling how she found out, how the family supported the son even after the confession… It was amazing!

“We don’t hear stories like these everyday, I mean some stories like this have bloody and tearful ending. It was just so delightful to know that such love exists in this world, unconditional (in its truest form) . ”

It would take a brave heart to come up with your peers moreso to your parents and admit that “mom, dad, I’m GAY”. It’s I believe love for oneself, a strong conviction that being gay is not something to be ashamed of. It is acceptance of ones existence and proving that you value yourself the same. I can’t imagine myself living a life of lies and pretentions. It must have been heartbreaking to just dream of being the real you, for acting the person you are definitely not.. Tears must have been endless and fear is swallowing the entire you…..it must be very difficult…….

i know many are still hiding in the closet, many are still afraid of rejection coz’ others can really be cruel and unruly. How can you blame them for hiding?

I must admit there are question in my mind but honestly, I feel gays should have equal rights, I hope one day we try to look deeper and see them the way we look at straight men or women. Lets look beyond laughters and acknowledge their tears even more. Yes, in a lot of ways they make us laugh but its not suppose to be filled with ridicule but laughter thats tells they are making us HAPPY!!!