shattered!

April 28th, 2009

I’ve had low moments before. For how many times my hopes have been shattered but today is quite different. So this is how it feels…so this is how my reaction would be,, Honestly, I can’t find words that would describe how disappointed , how hopeless I am. Its like being stranded in a place where help is impossible then you found a cellphone ( with load and there’s a signal) but with an empty battery … how pathetic right?

I don’t know if I had too much hope, if my expectations are too high, if I “counted the eggs before they hatched” or I was just so dissatisfied that when I heard of a possible change in our lives, I pictured it in my mind so clear that I forgot to realize that it hasn’t turned into reality. I know what I am feeling right now doesn’t match how devastated you are. Its like, holding on to that last straw and now,,,its all gone.

I want to believe in dreams, I still want to believe that there’s hope for us, but for now let me face the painful truth…….